HE's the reason for the tears dropped on my guitar ... </3

期待让人越来越沉迷 沉迷让人越来越累
我不是累，是痛了
我觉得自己是一个给别人很烦的人 对不起
我不应该那么多余
我不想“反感”/ “尴尬”这回事在我预料之中会发生
可是希望自己的逃避，不会让你感到做作
要不然 我还能怎样
顺其自然吗 还是能不能让我先改变那悲哀的结局
让自己不被这伤痛捆绑下去

拿得起 放得下吗

或许你一直以来都懂，却没有要什么
对吧，是我想太多
原以为还有多少机会却是自以为

我，不会再碰触一切
我也不应该那么笨去等一个空白的东西
当作这是我最后一次给自己当白痴就够了

Drew looks at me
I fake a smile so he won't seeWhat I want and I need
And everything that we should be

I'll bet she's beautifulThat girl he talks about
And she's got everything
That I have to live withoutDrew talks to me
I laugh 'cause it's just so funny
I can't even see
Anyone when he's with meHe says he's so in loveHe's finally got it right
I wonder if he knows
He's all I think about at night

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitarThe only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing starHe's the song in the car I keep singing
Don't know why I doDrew walks by me
Can he tell that I can't breathe?And there he goes, so perfectly
The kind of flawless I wish I could be

She better hold him tight
Give him all her loveLook in those beautiful eyes
And know she's lucky 'cause

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing
Don't know why I do

So I drive home alone
As I turn out the light
I'll put his picture downAnd maybe get some sleep tonight

'Cuz he's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heartHe's the song in the car I keep singing
Don't know why I do

He's the time taken up but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall intoDrew looks at me
I fake a smile so he won't see

( thanks for some of you who read my blog or view my facebook saw that i'm "emo" nowadays, thanks for care & concern. no bigss, i'm totally fine. i'm not emo kia. )
and to someone, 你觉得我爱逞强却很表面的装出来让人发觉.. wow, 我没有；其实我也不懂有没有。
anyway, 什么事都总会经历的啦 什么事都总会过去的啦 我不会是那么看不开的人吧 我还好好活着